heartbroken

What happens when you know your heart is breaking and yet your trying to keep it together. be strong for the better. Everything seems like it was sugarcoated and the true colors of things begin to show melting on your hands as chocolate, chocolate you used to love yet no longer desire.  looking  for a resolution telling yourself to forget to try and  to move on, why cant i?  i cant ignore  this pounding and crushing sensation in my chest. i cant even  cry anymore but i need to how else will i release these hurtful emotions that is piosioning my mind, my blood, my soul. how do i leave where should i go? i've been a runaway to long yet everywhere i go and rest my head i wake up in a different room. No i prefer you not to protect me and lie. lay the truth on the table let me swallow it down, let me break and crumble, is that not how i grow stronger. Will it ever stop? Will i ever be stronger? Can i ever just love and can love just love me?